Monday, August 31, 2009

Just to put you in a good mood!

This song always makes me feel better! I thought about it today when I was get out of a cranky mood!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I can't even write what I want too...

I've had a really lousy couple of weeks concerning someone I thought was my friend. What I've learned though is that this person is not a friend, b/c friends don't treat each other like I've been treated. I'm so mad today at the end result. I'm hurt from someone that I really respected that fully "supported" me until it came down to making a decision. I feel that I've been railroaded by other staff members and I don't know what to do.

I want to be mad. I want to be upset. I want to say bad things about these people that have said horrible things about me lately. Yet, I can't bring myself to actually doing it. I want to get revenge. I want them to leave and go away and never come back. Again, I can't bring myself to say this to anyone. I honestly don't even really feel it. Yes, I'm mad at what's happened. Yes, I wish that our friendship didn't have to be over. Things will never be the same. I know I'm being vague, but names don't matter. Detailed circumstances don't matter. What matters is how I choose to handle myself. I refuse to stoop down to their level. I want to choose the higher road that everyone is telling me to choose. And I probably's not in my nature to really be mean to someone. I'll kill them with my kindness. Even if they don't apologize I have to forgive. I love what I do and I'm not going to let them ruin it for me, but I also won't be railroaded again. I don't think that's the right thing to do either. So tonight this is my prayer:

In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words; Romans 8:26

Sunday, August 23, 2009


We survived the first week of school! Just barely though! Naia had a bit of a rough week adjusting to a new school, new teacher, etc. Hopefully this week will be much better as we get into the routine of car pool and going to school every day with no nap! Xavier is even excited about school right now too and that's definitely a bonus!

Brent starts outage this week. He'll be working 6 days a week for about 5 weeks. At least he'll have Saturdays off, but I will be on full time parent duty until he's done. Then he goes back on shift work, which is another post of it's own!

Doesn't it seem like it should be time for fall decorations now that school has started and it's been in the high 50's when you get up in the morning?! I can't wait to start putting out fall decorations, but I make myself wait until after labor day b/c then I get to wanting to put up Christmas decorations WAY too early!!!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

I thought it would be quiet today....

But Paxton isn't allowing that to happen! He's chosen today to throw major fits! Well maybe for a moment he'll watch Sesame Street!

Today is the first day of school. How long have I been ready for this day? Weeks probably! But today dropping off Xavier at the back door and taking Naia in to her class was so hard! Dropping off Xavier wasn't too bad. Having to leave Naia was super hard. I didn't cry in front of her though. The little boy next to her was having a hard time and I knew that if I even got teary eyed, she'd be joining him! So we said a quick goodbye and left. My tears didn't start until we got back to the car. I cannot believe my little Naiabean is in Kindergarten. And I think it's just as hard to believe that Xavier is in 3rd grade! The time has flown by. Here are their first day of school pictures!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

South Korea in the News

If you or your husband are PGA fans, you know that Tiger lost to YE Yang. He is the first Asian to win a major in the PGA and he's from South Korea!

Also, a South Korea's only Nobel Peace winner Kim Dae-Jung, died yesterday from natural causes. You can go to read about it. He led an extraordinary life trying to reconcile North and South Korea.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Busy Day

Today we had "back to school" haircuts for Naia and Paxton. Naia got her hair cut short! And it's too cute. Paxton got a regular haircut, but he did sit in the seat all by himself!

I think that finally we have everything we need for school on Wednesday. I even have a fresh loaf of bread for lunches this week! What a great mom I am! haha...

On the first day of school, I plan to clean my bathrooms! As a baby gift, my grandma's been paying for someone to come clean the house, but with both older kids in school, I'm beginning to wonder if I can handle it all again! SO on Wednesday I'm going to attempt bathrooms while Paxton naps. Today I did a trial run to see if I could make myself clean during naptime instead of sleep like the kids do. I succeeded, but the big kids didn't nap b/c they could hear me up and around. Thank goodness they'll be in school when I try to clean again. I did get the living room all picked up plus all the floors in the living room, eating area and kitchen swept really good! So I consider naptime cleaning for today a success! What do you plan on doing when your kids go back to school? Come on...I know you have something planned!

Friday, August 14, 2009

School Shopping

Today we went school shopping with the little girls. I don't have pictures, BUT they were too cute! We hit two stores and were done! Don't you just love finding everything you need that quickly! We had a yummy lunch at El Chico and then went back to pick up Xavier to take him school shopping. On the way to the mall though he apparently changed his mind and just wanted to go to the toy store! SO his Nona took him there instead and he got a new DS game. What a day.

Brent passed his NRC exam today! Hooray!!! I'm so proud of him. He's worked so hard for the past 15 months to get to this point and now it's done! Outage starts in a couple of weeks though so he'll be plenty busy! I was commenting on someone else's page earlier about this time last year. We were just so sure that we'd be getting our referral during August! Crazy to think that!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Monday, August 10, 2009

Multiple Personalities...

My children all have very different personalities. Sometimes I feel like I live in a psych ward! Today was one of those days.

Let's start with the eldest. Xavier, born 8 1/2 years ago. He's quiet, reserved, could easily be the biggest couch potato, doesn't typically bother anyone. Today as usual he was minding his own business and Naia decides that she wants to sit on him. Not near him, but on top of him. Therefore Xavier proceeds to scream for her to move. He doesn't do anything however to actually remove her from on top of him!

Naia, ah Naia. The poor middle child. She's picking up more tendencies of a middle child daily. She's outspoke, loves to pretend, dress up, play school, etc. Today was no different. When she got in trouble for sitting on Xavier, she simply went to her room and colored! Now she is an instigator. She loves to terrorize both of her brothers. Today after she quit messing with Xavier she started on Paxton. She took away his toys, got into trouble for that. She tries finally just to play with him. Bringing him special toys from her room for him to play with. She's really trying to play nice. I guess I have to bring Paxton into this now too, to fully understand the interaction between these two!
Paxton, sweet Paxton. He's been getting into everything today. I've had to tell him no probably a hundred times or say Let's play over here with this, more times than I care to think about. He is a pincher and a biter. I've never had to deal with either of these. I was a biter though, and remember actually biting the blood out of people regularly. But I have no idea how to stop the biting with Paxton. I think he bites because he can't communicate what's wrong or that he wants you (Naia) to stop. So I guess today was one of those days. Naia was trying to play with him and apparently he didn't want to play with her, SO he bites her. Not just on the arm or hand or some where convienent, he bites her on the face with half of her lip in his mouth and at the same time, pinches the same side of her face. HARD. It left teeth marks and claw marks on the side of her sweet little face. And apparently she screamed so hard, it gave her a bloody nose, so that by the time I get into the living room, Naia is covered in blood. So I take her to get semi cleaned up and then go back to Paxton and scold him and put him in his crib to contain him while I clean up Naia. It takes awhile to get her nose to stop bleeding and she's upset about it all. Worried that there is something wrong with her face!

Oh the many personalities of my kids. It has been crazy around here today. I am so thankful for naptime though. They are all asleep now and hopefully I'm going to join them! Thanks for letting me vent a few days ago. It was just a rough week! This week is going to be better and then school starts next week, so I'm sure things will start to improve!

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Summer Funk

I guess it's the heat, the end of summer, everyone just ready to get things back to normal, etc. I don't really know, but our house is going nutso! The kids are at each other all day. It's too hot to play outside, there's nothing to do outside, I'm bored....are all replies I get to okay, outside!

I also just want to vent a little. Just because I choose to stay home with my children, does not mean that I'm not capable of doing other things outside the house. I've gotten vibes and even more than vibes lately about people thinking or telling me that I can't control my house. My kids are heathens, I have my hands full, we shouldn't have any more kids. I think of all the things that I've heard lately, that one bothers me the most. Who's decision is it besides ours to decide if we should have another baby. Just because my kids aren't perfectly behaved, and my house isn't always perfectly clean doesn't mean that I can't handle my children or another child! And since when just because I'm a stay at home mom does that give people the impression that I'm an idiot and not capable of doing anything outside my home. Does being a stay at home mom automatically make people think that's ALL you can do? Cook, clean, raise babies? Does anyone else feel like this? And AS IF cooking and cleaning and raising your babies isn't something important or doesn't take brains to do?!

Sorry just having a rough week and wanted to vent! Thanks for listening!