Four Nights of Totally Uninterrupted Sleep...

can spoil a momma quick!

My mom had the kids for four nights! At first I was a little nervious spending all night alone (Brent's on nights) BUT it was fantastic! I went to bed early. Slept late two days. Shopped during the day! Had lunch with a friend. It was simply amazing. And let me tell you, it spoiled me quickly! I'm now sick again hopefully just with allergy/sinus stuff again, but it's kicking my booty hard this time around. Yesterday I made myself get up and go workout, today not so much! I'm still in my pj's from last night! I've gone through about a box of tissue today and been taking meds like crazy! I haven't run fever in YEARS! And last night and today I've been running a steady 101.7. Even with the meds....SO please pray that I get over this quickly. I have about 20 people coming to our house for Easter and would really really love to not still be feeling poorly!

Satan Ain't Nothin' but a Punk...

Several times lately I've been in circumstances, whether preaching, conversations or Sunday School where the topic of salvation has come up. I was saved when I was 15 about to turn 16 at a youth revival. I remember being broken, knowing I was a sinner, and accepting Jesus. But lately, I've been doubting or questioning if that faith was real. I know that I do several things at church, I pray, I read my Bible, etc...all things that christian should be doing. (AND please don't think that I'm doing these things perfectly! B/C I'm not!) BUT I do know that I love the Lord with all my heart. Tonight during nursery I had a good heart to heart with a lady I knew I could trust to assure me of my salvation. She told me that YES Satan can attack you when he knows your weak spots. Through the year of emotional ups and downs he has tried to trick me time and again to believe that my salvation is not real. He's such a punk! I thought that he was God trying to tell me something, that I wasn't really saved then. That my salvation wasn't real. BUT IT IS REAL! Just by talking to a friend, I've been reassured. I prayed about it all the way to church that I'd have the nerve to talk to someone tonight. That I would NOT leave church without knowing FOR SURE! The Lord put me in the nursery on a Sunday night when I never have nursery knowing that I'd need Deby tonight. That I'd need her to talk to, to ask questions and get answers with scripture. I needed it and the Lord provided. He's been providing all along. He takes care of his children. I am who He says I am. I am a child of God.

Funk

I've been in a funk lately. Feeling kind of down on myself. Not really excited or "in" to anything I've been doing. I guess it's been good for my workout though...I'm going longer and harder on the eliptical and treadmill!
I think I constantly want approval by certain people and not getting it hurts. I want my own clique....which stinks b/c I hate cliques. I don't think it's the clique I want, it's the intimate friendship. I think when I said I was going to pray for a friend, God's answer may be something that I wasn't expecting. Is He wanting me to turn to Him as the only friend I really need? I think so. SO, I'm going to work on that. On my relationship with Him. The one relationship that matters the most. I think that will make me get out of my funk. I know it will better my mood. Just typing it out makes me feel better already. SO if you want to be in a clique with me and God give me a call!

Lack of Posting

So sorry for the lack of posting! Not much is going on here, but beautiful beautiful weather! We've been spending tons of time outside. Tonight is also our awards ceremony for Upward and then we'll be done with that! The flowers are starting to bloom here and in just a few weeks I'm sure it will be perfect all over!

Sickly

First I was sick and not feeling well. Now Paxton is sickly with the same thing. I'm so tired of snot! I'm ready for summer when allergy season is gone and the air is so dry you're begging for a runny nose! HA! Just kidding....that's my least favorite time of the year! I hate the HOT hot summer. I do enjoy spring though. I've noticed that the daffodils are getting ready to bloom already.....spring will be here soon!